Forever BEcoming
"I’m scared of being “me” at college – essential oils, journaling, tea, my music taste, my intensity, etc. – I feel people aren’t going to accept me for who I am. But, on the other hand, I don’t even accept myself for who I truly am. I’m trying to cover up my flaws, insecurities, and personality just to attempt to fit in.”
This is me. My story. My life. It includes the imperfections of life, the desires in life, the frustrations in life, and all the emotions life brings to the table. I wrote the above excerpt in my journal during the summer prior to attending The University of North Carolina-Charlotte. I wanted to FIT IN so badly. I wanted people to understand who I am.
My whole life has been a constant battle between me and my thoughts. I used to lack control over my thoughts, allowing anxiety and OCD to burden me daily. I used to think that my thoughts controlled me. Not anymore. Through the moments of euphoria and struggle, I have learned that I am in control. So, now, it’s time to finally uncover the “real” David.
This portfolio is an example of true imperfection. I wanted to include pieces of work that were my favorite, such as the Anita Faye Hill speech, and my least favorite, such as the College Student blog. One student learning outcome I achieved was "Knowledge of Conventions." In my College Student blog, I definitely incorporated a different genre than what I was used to.
We are just all trying to find our way in the world. It takes time. It takes experience. It takes mistakes. It is a journey that we must all experience. As Stacy Barthe states, "We are all flawed, beautiful creatures."